Sunday, 15 March 2009

Going again

Fuck.

I loved my second boyfriend more than the first. They were both Jewish and the second boyfriend even served in the IDF, I think. But that's not the reason I loved him more.

Our relationship ended because he wanted to do things like go out for dinner and see movies. All I wanted to do is shag.

Of course he wanted to shag too but that's not the only thing he wanted to do. I think I was a bit of a shit.

On Friday night I was out in Cape Town and I ran into him. He works really hard and it shows but underneath he's still as hot and beautiful as he always was.

It was weird hugging him and as is always the case, you swap pleasantries but there is a whole lot more that you want to say but don't.

I was a little drunk. Or rather, I was very drunk and I really shouldn't have said it but the words just tumbled out my mouth.

I held his hand, looked him in the eye and said "boy, it was a long time ago and things are different now. But can we just fuck for old time's sake?"

I don't think it's what he wanted to hear.

It's really shit when you behave like the person you think you're not.

11 comments:

fleetmonkey said...

If you can't act like a tramp when your drunk when can you? You didn't say whether he said yes?

When are you due back in blighty - seems like your longest hols ever?

Bobby Cox said...

Fleets: It would be nice if the story had a happy ending but unfortuntely it doesn't.
I am back in England - actually...we can't talk about it. It's too painful!

MadeInScotland said...

are you coming back to London or have u moved back?

S said...

Rather classy, you bugger :P

seahorse said...

eina...aka..ouchy....

the good fing is u were drunk, bless.

Alfred said...

sorry bobby you need to wait this week very busy and tired i try on friday send it to you i will.but this time very special because i am very exciting you are talking your boyfriend and love i feel you are very cool i really want to comprehend you more

sweetheart

Anonymous said...

What no photos of him?? You usually are pretty good about getting pics.... ?

Carl

Anonymous said...

Does anyone else think that Seahorse is hansome?

Me likey...!

Carl

seahorse said...

i finkus the boy on the left is a moffie, haha, i bet i can win her in a drinking comp hehe..

Bobby Cox said...

Seahorse: You've made the wrong comment on the wrong post.
Put the booze down.

Daniel said...

*hugs*
you will meet your perfect man oneday! or we will create one using science and cloning! one for us each x